I used to feel so lonely, despite not being alone!
How does that work I hear you say?
I had friends, family, a partner & work colleagues all around me but I still felt alone…
The reality is I didn’t feel loved or accepted. I felt like they didn’t ‘get me’.
I was looking for validation from them that I was enough, only it never came.
I was also ‘in my head’ a lot. Worries whirring around my head that I didn’t share with anyone & yet I plastered a smile on my face.
How can they get me if they don’t know me?
How can they know me if I don’t let them in?
How can they accept me if I’m not showing up as me?
I wasn’t showing up as me because I didn’t know who me was, I was so lost in trying to be what I thought others wanted me to be.
It took some time & help but I started getting honest with myself.
About the state of my life & the fact I didn’t know who I was & that I certainly wasn’t being authentic to my true self.
I dug deep & I connected with who I am & what I want & I started to let people in to what was going on in my head.
Sure it was uncomfortable at first but it got easier with time.
The acceptance I craved needed to come from me & with time it did.
Now even when I’m alone I don’t feel lonely.